competitions' week

Tomorrow ! this is it! ! tomorrow I've to perform drama! it's a competition which is my first time! omg how am I going to be nervous about it!? I just want to win no matter. All my efforts I don't either may or may not work out.It just... so hard. Imagine it. every week , every day we have to practice all over again and again.There's a school(TBSS) which I think we have to bet them and I know we can't, they're totally good in it. their efforts are really worth it. I don't know how to express it out. But every time my school's drama team practice, I can't feel their confidence inside them.Even tho They knew that TBSS is going to be a winner no matter what. But at least try hard this time.It's pretty hard to predict the situations tomorrow and how DAmn we are going to be. Today, the whole day we've practice. I just wanna make this drama to be perfect with everything. like with settings,background music which I rally used up my time to find it,action,voices. All these things I wanna make it perfect and wonderful.But just an obstacle makes me can't do it.There's a character: Child 1, he is a cute boy which is younger than me , of course . But tho he's cute, his voice so damn slow and dark. He always in serious manner.I don't know why. some scenes that he supposes to be sad, sorrow. He just like a wooden block. some scenes that he supposes to be happy and excited. He just like a wooden block. I know teacher tries to encourage them with :" OH you're good!" or blah blah blah. But I felt it's not enough.My spirits almost done at that time. But i think back, maybe I should relax myself and be positive about them.The problem is the voice and how am I going to be nervous if I see those outstanding students coming to our school perform and take away the trophies and certificates.And I'm going to be a loser go up to the stage, feel ashamed about it and quickly take away the useless-loser's certificate?!
God , pray hard there's nothing bad would happen tomorrow. I just want to win. This is my first time join Drama and it's my first time to be the main character of the drama.I want to show out my talents but not this kind of way.
Tuesday- Drama competition
Wednesday-Singing competition
Thursday-Choral Speaking competition
A couple weeks later- choir competition and Chinese Recitation
A month later- Mid-year Exam
A couples months later-English Online Grammar competition.

that's how busy I am.
Hope there's nothing unexpected situations happen
God Help me please. Bless :)