Some seems to judge me before they even get to know me
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I've cried once but not twice.Fine then, I'm not that kind of girl who wanna judge them back with rude words.Because I know, all the time I'm just lie to myself. Once I just lost my self-esteem,confident,my aim and so many things else I couldn't get it in one time. 
Ever think back what's really going on in my past.things I've gone through. Just regret.
yeah.
that's right.
try to run away ? HOW? Keep smiling everyday? pretending? forget about it? yeah i think it may be the ways to run away from it.
. You know I don't date anyone since I was born. I have no boyfriend since I was born because I don't wanna have it. He hurts you,annoys you,rebels you ......... some sort like that. I know many of my friends even one who gets the outstanding result also has a BF. DAR~ I'm not that kind of girl~ keep complaining He hurts me, HE betrays me, He blah blah blah. Guys~
I always answer them. if you just think LOve is hard and you just keep thinking that you're the one for him in the world,he can't run away from you, you can't handle it or whatever.
PLEASE do not complain or spill the HOT "drink" on me because I only give advice and listen to your trouble. Not your Dustbin.
But I would advice you 
YOu may not understand what I'm talking about here but nvm. JUst deal with it.
Just think back about me.
When I was a little fat girl, i always told mum: I want to be a this~ . that~ . year by year I could change any ambition I like. And now I felt like I'm a girl who lost her aim and dreams. What to do? I did like to tell all my friends that they're beautiful.
that's what I always say to them.I don't feel like I'm belong to here. *be calm I'm not going to commit suicide. Because I know if I'm gone someday no one notices me or I know I don't be to noticed. So just be COOL. I tell myself :
haha. So just keep Laughing . smiling.BTW I need to work hard to achieve a good result. I get frustrated with my recent result because it's pretty suck. I know. I know everything better than me.i know I know.
Stay Positive!
I always tell myself. Be strong. everything will be fine even though your dreams won't come true. At least you still can enjoy your life without disturbing by others. As LOng As I'm still alive.I don't need to grab attention from you. NO. You may find your treasure map for your future someday
but you've to guide yourself to reach it.There's nothing perfect in this world as you know if the one is totally perfect,
So
and enjoy FOOD!!!!!!!
haha
