Just simple

I know I have been a week I don't log in my blog. Why? because I'm busy All the time. In case there's a lot of competitions. look at the list below:
1. Singing competition: 2nd place. ok that's fine because I don't expect to win. btw, I'm not a good singer. JUSt for FUN!
2. Science show: this competition is my suckest game , ever. ok. these was my first time I took part in these kind of competition. It's kinda like a representation by recording in the video and then send to the competition organizer to judge our representation. three groups two members each group took part. Before I get a chance to participate in this, there's only one group qualified to join, but then, teacher changed her mind, she allowed us to take part. So each group had to do at least 3 - 4 experiments. I'd searched it for 'bout a couple weeks. at the end I didn't find my result usable. DAmn. I was running out of time. Science concept. These holy shit made me out of my mind! three experiments must be containing the same science concept/ theory. I don't know. I just found some experiments that's absolutely spectacular. I just told my partner, May Gee. : this stuff must be very cool. let us tell teacher."
Before I get a chance to tell teacher what's my experiments, she told us:" all your experiments must have the same science concept" you know, at this moment, her confirms made me blah out of my brain. i was kinda like taking out my brain and eat it right away. Damn! I'd found it very hard and then you tell me that all must be the same theory?! f**k ok fine. just do it. I'd create my own script for this video, I'd found three experiments about density, we'd prepare many materials and practices. Now what? ok we did record yesterday, afternoon. we're the last group. LAst group. So damn ,i really don't know how to describe our video yesterday but it's suck. from the beginning, cut cut cut cut just kept cutting the video. every sentences I can say, cut until the end of the show. Be our cameraman may cause mental problem. ok that's was fun. what I was worry from yesterday is we might not win because this competition is state level. NoT district level. see?! there's a lot of participants out there who are clever than us, wiser than us..........
about that, i'm going to faint. just can't stop thinking. but now. I just wanna focus on my study.

so I have been a month i think, just stay out of my study.
BEsides, mid-year is around the corner. i think it's on 14th May. and we need to face the exam a couple weeks!!!!! yup. we're going to be mad. insane . good! now I'm crazy. listening Mr.Saxobeat. and Give your heart a break by Demi Lovato.
The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love
But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was

Now here we are
So close yet so far
Haven't I passed the test
When will you realize
Baby, I'm not like the rest

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

On Sunday you went home alone
There were tears in your eyes
I called your cell phone, my love
But you did not reply

The world is ours if we want it
We can take it if you just take my hand
There's no turning back now
Baby, try to understand

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

When your lips are on my lips
And our hearts beat as one
But you slip out of my fingertips
Every time you run, whoa-oh-whoa-oh-oh

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong

Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break
(Let me give your heart a break)

'Cause you've been hurt before
I can see it in your eyes
You try to smile it away, some things you can't disguise
Don't wanna break your heart
Maybe, I can ease the ache, the ache
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break

There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break (your heart), your heart a break (a break)
Oh yeah, yeah

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love

competitions' week

Tomorrow ! this is it! ! tomorrow I've to perform drama! it's a competition which is my first time! omg how am I going to be nervous about it!? I just want to win no matter. All my efforts I don't either may or may not work out.It just... so hard. Imagine it. every week , every day we have to practice all over again and again.There's a school(TBSS) which I think we have to bet them and I know we can't, they're totally good in it. their efforts are really worth it. I don't know how to express it out. But every time my school's drama team practice, I can't feel their confidence inside them.Even tho They knew that TBSS is going to be a winner no matter what. But at least try hard this time.It's pretty hard to predict the situations tomorrow and how DAmn we are going to be. Today, the whole day we've practice. I just wanna make this drama to be perfect with everything. like with settings,background music which I rally used up my time to find it,action,voices. All these things I wanna make it perfect and wonderful.But just an obstacle makes me can't do it.There's a character: Child 1, he is a cute boy which is younger than me , of course . But tho he's cute, his voice so damn slow and dark. He always in serious manner.I don't know why. some scenes that he supposes to be sad, sorrow. He just like a wooden block. some scenes that he supposes to be happy and excited. He just like a wooden block. I know teacher tries to encourage them with :" OH you're good!" or blah blah blah. But I felt it's not enough.My spirits almost done at that time. But i think back, maybe I should relax myself and be positive about them.The problem is the voice and how am I going to be nervous if I see those outstanding students coming to our school perform and take away the trophies and certificates.And I'm going to be a loser go up to the stage, feel ashamed about it and quickly take away the useless-loser's certificate?!
God , pray hard there's nothing bad would happen tomorrow. I just want to win. This is my first time join Drama and it's my first time to be the main character of the drama.I want to show out my talents but not this kind of way.
Tuesday- Drama competition
Wednesday-Singing competition
Thursday-Choral Speaking competition
A couple weeks later- choir competition and Chinese Recitation
A month later- Mid-year Exam
A couples months later-English Online Grammar competition.

that's how busy I am.
Hope there's nothing unexpected situations happen
God Help me please. Bless :)

N/A

So this is it. My life. be serious about it.I don't know what to write about here. But I think I have not much time to push away all my reality in a damn shit fool society life.It seems hard to me. Indeed. All these 16 years I've been through. Maybe there's no one could understand my feelings. Some seems to judge me before they even get to know me. I've cried once but not twice.Fine then, I'm not that kind of girl who wanna judge them back with rude words.Because I know, all the time I'm just lie to myself. Once I just lost my self-esteem,confident,my aim and so many things else I couldn't get it in one time.  Ever think back what's really going on in my past.things I've gone through. Just regret. yeah. that's right.
try to run away ? HOW? Keep smiling everyday? pretending? forget about it? yeah i think it may be the ways to run away from it.. You know I don't date anyone since I was born. I have no boyfriend since I was born because I don't wanna have it. He hurts you,annoys you,rebels you ......... some sort like that. I know many of my friends even one who gets the outstanding result also has a BF. DAR~ I'm not that kind of girl~ keep complaining He hurts me, HE betrays me, He blah blah blah.  Guys~  I always answer them. if you just think LOve is hard and you just keep thinking that you're the one for him in the world,he can't run away from you, you can't handle it or whatever. PLEASE do not complain or spill the HOT "drink" on me because I only give advice and listen to your trouble. Not your Dustbin.  But I would advice you 
YOu may not understand what I'm talking about here but nvm. JUst deal with it.
Just think back about me.  When I was a little fat girl, i always told mum: I want to be a this~ . that~ . year by year I could change any ambition I like. And now I felt like I'm a girl who lost her aim and dreams. What to do? I did like to tell all my friends that they're beautiful.
  that's what I always say to them.I don't feel like I'm belong to here. *be calm I'm not going to commit suicide. Because I know if I'm gone someday no one notices me or I know I don't be to noticed. So just be COOL. I tell myself :
    haha. So just keep Laughing . smiling.
BTW I need to work hard to achieve a good result. I get frustrated with my recent result because it's pretty suck. I know. I know everything better than me.i know I know.
Stay Positive!

I always tell myself. Be strong. everything will be fine even though your dreams won't come true. At least you still can enjoy your life without disturbing by others. As LOng As I'm still alive.I don't need to grab attention from you. NO. You may find your treasure map for your future someday but you've to guide yourself to reach it.There's nothing perfect in this world as you know if the one is totally perfect,
So 
and enjoy FOOD!!!!!!!
 

  haha

buzzz .....buzzzz.....busy bee.....buzzz..

Oh My Heck. I'm so busy all these days! all these months! drama competition, choral speaking competition, choir competition..... examinations,holidays......... OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   > arh~ busy indeed<  but i need to take part in every competitions that will be held through out this year! if not, i've no more chance to participate right after next year because I've gotta big examination to be faced .  IN MY WHOLE LIFE!  so I've to hold on this chances.
oh i think i haven't answer the question I'd post last time. I've been chosen to study in 4 Science ,unfortunately.indeed. so it was kinda depressed,impressed,splendid,and......idk it's really busy life. everyday I've gone through makes me feel like 24 hours a day is not enough. sleep 8 hours/day , study 8 hours/day , three hours practices / day , two hours tuition / week. all above / month! i need to study more! i need to have more tuition! i need to practice every three competitions / week!
i don't know how to go through it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Family matters...... besides, I'm the monitor of the class! i need to take care of everything of 'em. organize every job for 'em. non-stop working . first i thought it's kinda good for me to diet. but i get fatter instead! oh dear..............
Choral speaking. obviously it's one of my favorite competition since i was 13. three years I've been taken part in . this is the last year I take part in it . next year I won't anymore. T.T yeah... it's pretty sad. but i hope rules and regulations will change next year..........
my teacher said I've a 'acting' voice. i thought I was going to be a conductor of this choral speaking group because my friend who had been a conductor last year said she wanna join in and have fun with this year's ''kids'' and the interesting scripts. So i let her be it. But my teacher was kinda disagree with it .. So she decided to push me into the group and pull her out to be the conductor of the group. Honestly,I don't have any experience about conducting people. So i'm ok with anything as long as they feel it's ok.

about drama, it's my first time. so I was kinda nervous. IT'S BEEN VERY CLEAR i WAS VERY NERvous.  i thought I was only going to be the side character. but my TEacher again asked me to be the main character.LISA. [ oh bitch the one who create the script , my name is Libby] the story was VERY,ABSOLUTELY,DEFINITELY. bORING.
choir. I love to sing. so indeed I'm joining in......

so i think that's all for this latest update. I've gotta do homeworkS  XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

eyes

2012 is coming...goodbye 2011.

i don't know where to start this pots.I've press the backspace for a couple times after typing so many nonsense . How and where to begin. I always expressed my hates over here. like the holly shit or just scroll down then you'll see many holly shits.

So let's lose talk about that.

so many that will be the memory but I don't hope those bad memory saved in my brain memory. Just saved in blogger's memory.

I'm turning to 16 next year. just within 5 days. but according to traditional culture, I'm still have 10 months while i'm turning to 16. 

"A new year and A new wish"translated from Chinese proverb. but i don't think like that. What i always dream for is always the same.the aim I've taken never gonna change. Nothing's gonna change my dreams forever. 

So, isn't about this matter I post new update. but I think about the new lessons I'll be learning after 8 days. Whole new things I need to get used of myself. the result I've taken last 4 days wasn't satisfied by me. I don't think that's good result but it's a suck. Imagine that the full score is 8A's . your goal is 5A's but your real result is 3A's3B's1C1D . damn suck!

Then I'll just forget the past and walk towards for my future.

Sudden expression: I wonder when the world end and the all the histories repeat.

Go to some place where no one knows your name..........

No more Holly Shit

Just no more holly shit. I think all these day I'll switch on my PC and log in to Tumblr, then Facebook, then you, blogger. Basically , for em , they're so happy about TWO-MONTHS-SCHOOL-HOLIDAYS. it's doesn't need to be happy about it."Where the hell have you been all these 60++ days? " answered:"JUST STAY HOME, FACEBOOK,TUMBLRIN',PLAYIN' GAMES, THEN GO TO WORK. that's the "indoor and outdoor activity " for me.  to those who are rich and wisdom or diligent or whatever, they just keep attend tuition and prepare for next year lessons. they're so eager to learn about that. I'm SO JEALOUS O.O . just gonna sleep. I'm just back from work. I'LL CONTINUE TOMORROW :) WAIT FOR THE LATEST POST :P

HOlly Shit III

ok. i'm burning and frustrated right now. why?ok listen,i'll tell you.


the government WAS confirmed to give ALL OF STUDENTs in Malaysia include us RM 100 (=31.6738 USD / 32.5545 CAD) so i was kinda happy about it although it's not very high value to me. IT'S FOR FREE! we deserve this money! so I went to school two days just to get money. 
story start like this:>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
In a couple months ago, our principal have been taken place a new principal which is going to retire in July next year [{( >.> it's funny about this because, to me basically being a principal, he/she has to be given services more than two years, that's all i really know since I studied from kindergarten til' now. but this principal only gives services about nine months O.o it's weird to us to laugh out loud!  so i really appreciate our given-7-years-services principal in this school. She was Chinese and she was kinda like a healthy-reminder to every students in this school FOR EVERYDAY. her quote :" HEALTH IS WEALTH". that's what i like about her. But so sad, when I was just in Form 1, she's going to retire in two more years.Now i'm form 3, she's retired and our school's like losing a peace-protector.  Before we find out our new principal, all of us was kinda sad about our beloved principal retirement. We knew that our next principal will be very different compared to our old-principal.So, we have to face the reality. She was the ONE Chinese principal in this Tampin area. Every teachers was respect her. Malaysia is a country that have many races. So in our school, CHINESE,INDIAN,AND MALAY. She doesn't need to be very angry about mistakes that have done by students but when she's got pissed off by students' discipline issues, she'll act what she's going to be.She only teach Form 5 science class.{don't know what is science class?view back the " Holly Shit" post} [ besides,I already decided that I'll go to have a tuition with her] So, those Malays teachers can't do anything instead of complaining. BUT after The Male-suck-principal replaced her place, he does everything he likes to. Everything was ruined by him. the pavilion was destroyed, some colorful stone chairs and table were being moved to some disgusting places, A small green field have been replaced with many stone which is now car park for teachers, HE ALSO act like a commander to command teachers to do this do that. his present made those Malays teaches happy and always make some snitches at him. EVEN A SMALL MATTER. He mentioned every mistakes that have been done by students in front of us everyday in assembly. once, form 5 students broke parent's car's mirror by using WATERMELON. He yelled out their names and called them to come out. THEN,ASKed even ORDERED teachers to witness the incident have to stand out and say.And guess what?! they did what he told them! it's doesn't matter to me because those students deserve this punishment BUT THEn he just shake hand with those students and become friends. IS IT WEIRD? WOULD YOU BE HIS FRIEND AFTER HE SLAPPED YOU,PUNISHED YOU,SCOLDED YOU ? ok, the second situation is, it's normal to those students to play poker cards because there's nothing to do all these months. why? because they finished they're exams and started the "battle" . LIKe gambling poker cards. They did it in their class and there's a teacher witnessed it. That teacher was like bitch but she's not really a bitch. Before the replacement of our old-principal,she was very quiet and just only a prayer teacher that teach Malays students to pray or it's kinda Muslim moral. She was very nice once i met her. But this time, she snitched very small matter at him. She wrote down the names of students that involved in the gambling. HE again, announced by her and read out the names. He gave her the microphone and told all of us what they've done on the stage.Then, same things happened. He used rattan to slap their BUTT and shake hand with them >.> then HE asked them, who's the winner Have you ever seen such a principal in your school???! what the hell! He's the causes made us out of our mind!)]}so let us talk back about our today's topic. He used this time which is the day before the distribution of that RM 100, to buy 600+ chairs to us. WHAT'S THE POINT? WHY BUY US SO MANY CHAIRS? WE DON'T EVEN NEED IT. WE STILL HAVE MANY CHAIRS IN OUR CLASS. you know why he bought all this chairs? TO COMMAND US, SIT ON THOSE CHAIRS ONCE YOU ARRIVED AT SCHOOL AND READ BOOKS AT THE ASSEMBLY FIELD. He changed and ruined it all. We don't need this at all. WE DON'T EVEN ASK FOR THOSE CHAIRS?! Ok, seems like you don't know yet. YOU KNOW where he got those money? HE USED OUR PAYMENT, WHOLE SCHOOL PAYMENT(PIBG, means Parent's & Teacher's Association.), FOR EVERY YEAR TO BUY IT. it's about RM 12000+ （3,792.61 USD ，3,898.86 CAD ) ok. then the day we deserve that RM100, he told us that we only get RM 90 { which is less than Rm 100) WTF!? Hey, imagine, if your government promised you to give you RM 100 and your principal only gives you RM 90, do you satisfy with it? although it's only a little value compare to the real price. BUT it's cheating us! my cousin and other school got RM 100 ! you know why he took away our RM10 from us? he told us that we need to pay back the chairs price that he bought. OMFG!asdfghjkl WTF we didn't even ask for it! besides, every school-opening year, we need to pay about RM 200+ to school include PIBG, means Parent's & Teacher's Association. SO means, we pay it twice! WTF!  He cheated us by using excuses he bought 600 + chairs to us then he can get back those money from us. YOU KNOW HOW TREACHEROUS IS HIM!
 so this is the real things happened to us. THE BATTLE BEGINS since his arrival at our school.i hope his retirement come as fast as possible. LoLXD  

Holly shit!

it's kinda been a couple months I didn't even read any books albeit all these days are school holidays. i was like a person who never read or study before. OMG what I'm going to do???? My mom always mentioned that English is needed to be learnt better intended to achieve my dream and for my future.And all these days I didn't even read any English books which i need to learn more vocabularies and grammars. I don't know why i have a kind of feeling when I see all those classmates are so determined,diligent,serious in studying English after the examination. It's such a dilemma and pathetic to me that I don't act like them.I went back to school last week,some of them were learning and reading English articles for next year. And I was like O.o wWWttttttTTTTFFFFFFfffff are they doing ???!!!! But what i do after the exam is REBLOGGING IN MY TUMBLR BLOG.  :L yeah that's what i do. HOLLY SHIT they made me jealous. ESPECIALLY the one who always show English at school.(i don't wanna mention HER name) she was kinda improving her English lately. so so so so. I need to ENHANCE MY ENGLISH LEVEL TOO@!@%#*%^^((&(()&(*^%^&$%$%^##$%#%*$&^()%$

sO, MY FINAL DECISION IS buy DICTIONARY WHICH IS quite expensive (RM 60+) and highly contained many words that i don't know and probably couldn't find out in my current small "un-useless" English dictionary although it'd with me for four years(many holly shits words I couldn't find out and make me dive in the hell),and and ENGLISH IDIOMS BOOKS which contained many idioms I needed to be used in my exams next two years and in social life.I wish that kind of book exist in the POPULAR book store, O.o . NEXT, BAHASA MELAYU IDIOMS BOOKS it's a main language I need to be scored high marks,so i can get my secondary-school's certificate  ( this certificate is wow to me I have to get,if don't I'm useless and I can't further my study ,especially my dream.) THEn, HISTORY this subject has been confirmed by the government that students ought to pass this subject so that they can get the secondary-school's certificate.SEEE! MY HOLLY SHIT this is my SUCK subject EVER! But i hope i can pass it and hopefully can get better result too. so NEXT is what I didn't expect to be learnt about, PHYSICS, CHEMICALS,BIOLOGY all these three subjects are only in one class ( science class )i don't know whether i'll be in science class( those who very intelligent students will step in this class.AND DEFINITELY NOT ME but I was interest in those kind of subjects .SO i guess i don't have any chance to be in this class >.> ) PA class ( for Malay pronounced, PerAkaunan for English means, accounting. I love maths too {but i don't get high marks} .So i was kinda confused in making up my mind. this class doesn't contain physics ,chemical,and biology. it only contained basics science.) the last two dummies class ( Tk and MPV ) TK is Technical and MPV is Planting. so i wish i can fulfill my decision. Next I need to buy is Mathematics and Additional Mathematics . ( science and PA class ) and Pendidikan Moral which is moral education. and finally ARTS! LK so so so . all of my decision about science or pa class is depends on my exam result.

Buy these stuff need money. now I gotta job.A job with RM 2.50/ hour it's very low price actually but there's no more such job require me because that boss was told me that i can work there about two years ago. O.O i know it's a wow that it should be worker interview a job but NOT the boss need to be interviewed by finding workers and booked couple years ago. so it depends on how many hours I work there and it's my pleasure what i arrive there and work. About work. i wish i don't wanna talk about it because if i write it down here,i'll complain many things. wanna memorize many price tags and blah blah blah blah blah !
so end here now!

Holly shit II

i'm sick T.T @.@ i got flu and sore throat. WHY! I'm so sad and unlucky OMFG

i was kinda angry about everyone around me except my mom and dad. they're careless.they're so damn dummies! i updated my latest issues but no one cares. THIS IS SERIOUS stuff ! one thing that i was frustrated about is whatever shits they updated or posted , there'll be 10++ likes and 10++ comments. YOU SEE THOSE THINGS they can get many likes and comments?@! WTF?! so I was kinda hate them and Facebook. it's bored.crazy. they're all crazy. and no one cares about me?! no more facebook update status. no more. just only tumblr and blogger.