Damn I hate it. sad

so. this is it. we lost. yeah we lost in the competition. choral speaking. after we have tried and practice so hard. and some of them spoil it.damn it. and I cried. some of them didn't cry because they didn't understand the losers hate being losers. all these years, I've successfully brought back my victories to my school. And now they've spoiled it. I think they've no more chances given to them even tho the chances still there. They don't even know how to appreciate it, make it more precious.Just now we brought back some fools, ashamed things that made me cried. I'm done. this year.Maybe there's no more chance for next year. But i hope i can give it a try again. The Form 1 students.I really,absolutely hate them.I don't want them to spoil our performance after all the hard work my old friends have been undergone.But this time , they did. So. It's my new Boo-boo and poo-poo head. I wanna get use to it. and Sure, there're more competitions waiting for me. I've abreast my feelings. tryna control it. Ok. damn. now i'm happy. Because I've found the songs I've been looking for all these years!..

I told myself. stay positive.calm down, everything will be fine. good, that's my experiences. I hope I'll either learn from it or accept it.

I'm Mr.Saxobeats'ing!

Yippytiyeay!!!!!!!!!!!

Today's drama competition. So , Our school won the second place within six schools!!!! Eyah!I was so nervous and i don't know how to describe the situation before going up to the stage. I was so afraid that we couldn't win the second place. Besides,our school became the host this year. kInda happy even tho we didn't won the first place and obviously, the first place is always belong to TBSS.
I won't care about it right now.
Tomorrow. Singing competition.
and before that, gonna prepare for our choral speaking competition for thursday.


I'm fed up of everything.

I don't know how to face it....
I wanna scream as loud as I can.
I won't take part in any single competitions. Just because I wanna get more certificates and have fun with it.
SO I decided take part in blah blah blah.

Very tired, I know.

So, tomorrow I'm gonna sing  A thousand Years by Christina Perri
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more


Good Luck ! Libby! 

competitions' week

Tomorrow ! this is it! ! tomorrow I've to perform drama! it's a competition which is my first time! omg how am I going to be nervous about it!? I just want to win no matter. All my efforts I don't either may or may not work out.It just... so hard. Imagine it. every week , every day we have to practice all over again and again.There's a school(TBSS) which I think we have to bet them and I know we can't, they're totally good in it. their efforts are really worth it. I don't know how to express it out. But every time my school's drama team practice, I can't feel their confidence inside them.Even tho They knew that TBSS is going to be a winner no matter what. But at least try hard this time.It's pretty hard to predict the situations tomorrow and how DAmn we are going to be. Today, the whole day we've practice. I just wanna make this drama to be perfect with everything. like with settings,background music which I rally used up my time to find it,action,voices. All these things I wanna make it perfect and wonderful.But just an obstacle makes me can't do it.There's a character: Child 1, he is a cute boy which is younger than me , of course . But tho he's cute, his voice so damn slow and dark. He always in serious manner.I don't know why. some scenes that he supposes to be sad, sorrow. He just like a wooden block. some scenes that he supposes to be happy and excited. He just like a wooden block. I know teacher tries to encourage them with :" OH you're good!" or blah blah blah. But I felt it's not enough.My spirits almost done at that time. But i think back, maybe I should relax myself and be positive about them.The problem is the voice and how am I going to be nervous if I see those outstanding students coming to our school perform and take away the trophies and certificates.And I'm going to be a loser go up to the stage, feel ashamed about it and quickly take away the useless-loser's certificate?!
God , pray hard there's nothing bad would happen tomorrow. I just want to win. This is my first time join Drama and it's my first time to be the main character of the drama.I want to show out my talents but not this kind of way.
Tuesday- Drama competition
Wednesday-Singing competition
Thursday-Choral Speaking competition
A couple weeks later- choir competition and Chinese Recitation
A month later- Mid-year Exam
A couples months later-English Online Grammar competition.

that's how busy I am.
Hope there's nothing unexpected situations happen
God Help me please. Bless :)

buzzz .....buzzzz.....busy bee.....buzzz..

Oh My Heck. I'm so busy all these days! all these months! drama competition, choral speaking competition, choir competition..... examinations,holidays......... OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   > arh~ busy indeed<  but i need to take part in every competitions that will be held through out this year! if not, i've no more chance to participate right after next year because I've gotta big examination to be faced .  IN MY WHOLE LIFE!  so I've to hold on this chances.
oh i think i haven't answer the question I'd post last time. I've been chosen to study in 4 Science ,unfortunately.indeed. so it was kinda depressed,impressed,splendid,and......idk it's really busy life. everyday I've gone through makes me feel like 24 hours a day is not enough. sleep 8 hours/day , study 8 hours/day , three hours practices / day , two hours tuition / week. all above / month! i need to study more! i need to have more tuition! i need to practice every three competitions / week!
i don't know how to go through it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Family matters...... besides, I'm the monitor of the class! i need to take care of everything of 'em. organize every job for 'em. non-stop working . first i thought it's kinda good for me to diet. but i get fatter instead! oh dear..............
Choral speaking. obviously it's one of my favorite competition since i was 13. three years I've been taken part in . this is the last year I take part in it . next year I won't anymore. T.T yeah... it's pretty sad. but i hope rules and regulations will change next year..........
my teacher said I've a 'acting' voice. i thought I was going to be a conductor of this choral speaking group because my friend who had been a conductor last year said she wanna join in and have fun with this year's ''kids'' and the interesting scripts. So i let her be it. But my teacher was kinda disagree with it .. So she decided to push me into the group and pull her out to be the conductor of the group. Honestly,I don't have any experience about conducting people. So i'm ok with anything as long as they feel it's ok.

about drama, it's my first time. so I was kinda nervous. IT'S BEEN VERY CLEAR i WAS VERY NERvous.  i thought I was only going to be the side character. but my TEacher again asked me to be the main character.LISA. [ oh bitch the one who create the script , my name is Libby] the story was VERY,ABSOLUTELY,DEFINITELY. bORING.
choir. I love to sing. so indeed I'm joining in......

so i think that's all for this latest update. I've gotta do homeworkS  XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX