Suffice to say, there ain't nothing left behind

M mm mm...Hmmm.Mhmhmmm
If You Can Take Away All My Love,what Do I Need You For?
You Can Take Away All These Words,there's No Meaning Anymore.
You Can Take Away Everything Leave Me Lying On The Floor,all Those Sorrys,we Can't Go Back To The Start.
You Can't Fix Me,i'm Torn Apart.
chorus
I Wanna Run Away From Love,this Time I Have Had Enough.
Every time I Feel Your Touch,i'm Broken.
Shattered All The Pieces Of Parts.
Never Thought I'd Fall So Hard.
I'm Putting Back Together My Heart,it's Broken. 
You Can Take These Photographs And Watch Them Fade Away.
You Can Through Away All These Letters,i Don't Care About What They Say.
All Those Sorrys,there's A Million Reasons Why You Can't Mend Me,don't Even Try.
Chorus
I Know It's Gonna Take Some Time,to Finally Realize.
I Got Nothing Left Inside,nothing To Hide,im Broken,broken,broken

Teacher asked me to join in choir once more, Since the pathetic circumstances I've undergone, I felt like I need more rest than anyone else. But anyway. I would like to thanks to my teachers who supported choral speaking team.And my best friend,Bakavathy Saravanan. She's awesome. So,I just learnt from it. Everyone is capable to win in one way or another. 

Today I'm not going to talk about the past. Just going to be happy and nervous. WHy?

BECAUSE  I haven't done some of my homework yet!!!! 

Ahaha! XD I'll finish it sooner and later. 

My friends used to ask me:" hmm,..Libby, why not you have some date with others? You feel lonely lately.I mean every time.Don't you want a person to make you feel more happy?" or "Hey,Libby. long time no chat. where's your boyfriend? don't ya tell me you haven't have a boyfriend yet. Aw, come on! find one by now! Why not?!" even my cousins in JB asked me the familiar questions.

I'm not telling ya that' I'm bored of all these question. Hey, look at me. I'm ugly.I'm not beautiful.I'm not that kind of materials you guys or that guy looking for. I don't have this qualification to have one. Because, I know, now is not the suitable time for me to search for one. Sometimes I feel happy albeit of being Single all the time. So I answered them:" Hey dude/ hey sweetie, I know it. but not now. I'll find it somehow someday. even tho you feel I'm lonely sometimes but I'm happy. Don't you see? everyday in the class, one of the loudest laughter is mine." Yeah I know. being single is the best. I feel 10% of envious/ jealous occasionally when I saw some couples past me by. But I'm fine somehow.

They asked:" don't you believe in fate?"     

"sometimes but yeah. don't ya?I think fate is pretty certain."

" But you're too into it. you need taaaa......"

" Hey,I'm just 16. the part of What I needed in my future life is study and money. Yeah yeah yeah I know when you wanna find the fate to love one.But now just let fate find me. I can reject it anytime I want but I'll accept it after I'm in society or in university or just blah blah blah"

read this book! I love it so much! It contained three love story which is my favorite so far.It's kinda dictionary actually. XD

After next-year lessons, means holidays, I......tryna ....... d.i.e.t haha it's funny. I become more fatter than more currently. XD XD XD I'm dying x.x 

I've recommended it before in my blog. But i still wanna tell ya . this is awesome! the fantastic fiction love story I've ever read! between two teenagers. OMG.

N/A

So this is it. My life. be serious about it.I don't know what to write about here. But I think I have not much time to push away all my reality in a damn shit fool society life.It seems hard to me. Indeed. All these 16 years I've been through. Maybe there's no one could understand my feelings. Some seems to judge me before they even get to know me. I've cried once but not twice.Fine then, I'm not that kind of girl who wanna judge them back with rude words.Because I know, all the time I'm just lie to myself. Once I just lost my self-esteem,confident,my aim and so many things else I couldn't get it in one time.  Ever think back what's really going on in my past.things I've gone through. Just regret. yeah. that's right.
try to run away ? HOW? Keep smiling everyday? pretending? forget about it? yeah i think it may be the ways to run away from it.. You know I don't date anyone since I was born. I have no boyfriend since I was born because I don't wanna have it. He hurts you,annoys you,rebels you ......... some sort like that. I know many of my friends even one who gets the outstanding result also has a BF. DAR~ I'm not that kind of girl~ keep complaining He hurts me, HE betrays me, He blah blah blah.  Guys~  I always answer them. if you just think LOve is hard and you just keep thinking that you're the one for him in the world,he can't run away from you, you can't handle it or whatever. PLEASE do not complain or spill the HOT "drink" on me because I only give advice and listen to your trouble. Not your Dustbin.  But I would advice you 
YOu may not understand what I'm talking about here but nvm. JUst deal with it.
Just think back about me.  When I was a little fat girl, i always told mum: I want to be a this~ . that~ . year by year I could change any ambition I like. And now I felt like I'm a girl who lost her aim and dreams. What to do? I did like to tell all my friends that they're beautiful.
  that's what I always say to them.I don't feel like I'm belong to here. *be calm I'm not going to commit suicide. Because I know if I'm gone someday no one notices me or I know I don't be to noticed. So just be COOL. I tell myself :
    haha. So just keep Laughing . smiling.
BTW I need to work hard to achieve a good result. I get frustrated with my recent result because it's pretty suck. I know. I know everything better than me.i know I know.
Stay Positive!

I always tell myself. Be strong. everything will be fine even though your dreams won't come true. At least you still can enjoy your life without disturbing by others. As LOng As I'm still alive.I don't need to grab attention from you. NO. You may find your treasure map for your future someday but you've to guide yourself to reach it.There's nothing perfect in this world as you know if the one is totally perfect,
So 
and enjoy FOOD!!!!!!!
 

  haha

Chinese New Year!

Hi! meet ya again! now this is the most important festival for me , ever. Because this is my tradition for being a Chinese. IF you're foreigner or don't know about what's Chinese New Year. O.M.g you gonna take a look at this post!this may help you getting know more about my culture!

So basically we've Chinese New Year Eve(22 Jan 2012) just like Christmas Eve which is the night before Chinese New Year.Early in the morning of the Chinese New Year Eve,we gonna have a big prayer before having a family-gathered-lunch.My mom and dad bought many ingredients for preparing the dishes. 

I was ordered to arrange these oranges. PRETTY,isn't?!

I purposely shoot the picture to show that the pineapple is one of the kind LOL 

* i forgot to take the dishes so I just took the photo of the moment we having lunch together after prayer.

so although our family members only three of us, not much dishes like in a rich family. just as much as we satisfy with it. no need to cook like in a restaurant. more important is our love and patient that we've gathered together.

After eating, I took the photos like:

I'm sorry you have to turn your head upside down but this is not a wine or brandy or whatever. it's only contained fruit sparkling . Until today I haven't open it yet :@

there's still more snacks we haven't finish yet!

so these two photos are one of our decorations in our home.actually it's pretty simple. just buy it and paste it that's all. last year I had to draw and design it all by myself.now no more! lol

OK that's for yesterday. today is the first day of CHinese New Year. We didn't go far actually. most of the time we just stay at home. nothing to do. my mom and dad just slept like pig and i just stare at my PC . I haven't FINISH YET !

let me tell ya. according to our tradition, obviously this year is Dragon. yeah Dragon with a long body and tail.

so for more, I'll post for further information tomorrow.

gooood night!