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After 4 weeks of torturing myself,
facing in front of those higgledy-piggledy revision books which made my desk messy,
I finally got myself freed from the insalubrious exams.
However,
I couldn't feel well.
Headache....
No treatment.
no free-of-charge massage..
My English test only get an A.
but I wanted A+ so badly.
my maths, no .. I'm too careless... damn
I dreamed every subject,.... A+
Stop dreaming Libby...
Stop dreaming
I had another program to run
which is now I'm preparing and making me dizzy.
It may leads me to a concussion.

Ever since I had lots of dreams,
I couldn't feel the real me.
I wished I would have escaped away from those impossible dreams.
But I still couldn't resist it.
I even put myself into the dreams
wasted my time on daydreams
and I had several Deja vu within a day
I didn't realize it but it's true
I wished I would have come back and stop it
But I couldn't
Dreams
why couldn't stop it..
I felt like there's someone who's controlling my mine
but it's my brain
It's supposed to be me as the commander of my brain
the dreams popped out every single day
daydreams, nightmares,
1 out of ten are sweet dreams
I wanted more sweet dreams instead of nightmares
It sort of like I'd put myself into danger when I have the daydreams
I knew it wouldn't come true
there's lots of but even if I knew what had happened to me of having such ridiculous dreams.
Well,
I think again
those dreams were sort of amazing  because it won't come true
As a human being,
I was kinda curious about how human can have dreams
and that made me think I'm a normal human.
but not abnormal
sometimes.. paranormal happened

The program is I.U night which is International Understanding Night

We, Interact club directors had our meeting in this morning.
I felt something's wrong with it.
I ain't gonna give up
I could feel the disagreement lived within them
I ain't gonna compromise about that
I know I have to take the responsibility as a I.U director.
I know this program is fully in charged by I.U director but I have to be humble.
I gotta ask permissions and opinions from my president and vice president of the club.
I know the risks of using " France" as the theme of the I.U night
The budget might be more than what I've imagined.
I wanna put a lot of afford on it no matter what.
I could see through their eyes
that they think it's too risky, used up a lot of money,a lot of burden we need to take
they could have shouted out if I'm not their friends,
they could have disagreed with me from the early day.
but they're my friends,
I ain't gonna let them down.
"France", the first time I took it as a theme of the occasion
It's cultures,cuisines, a lot of work needed to be done.
They seem to giving up on me
I felt a bit of disappointment.
It's like 7 years of this Interact club had been existed in my school.
I just wanna do something that makes me remember it forever.
you'll feel very special of something that you've done.
I could feel they'd criticized me without showing it out.
their actions, their expressions,
I know it.
I've made myself lived in the sorrow and grief.
At first,
they suggested the theme of " Halloween"
Well, I definitely disagreed of it
there's a lot of paranormal activities going on in my school.
They witnessed it
don't they wanna repeat it?
by the way.
this program organized to invite other school to join us at night.
I won't let them down to witness such horrible things in my school
If then, I have no idea how am I going to face them after that.

Well
I gotta get back to work,slide shows all these stuff
gonna throw a party if I succeed,
gonna face it if I failed.
I'll upload the photos after the I.U night which is held on 17 November.
Good Luck

Came back from my hometown

ok. i'd admit that I miss my hometown so much. i can't even explain the feelings when I wanna go back to JB all the time. it's like .....hai~   that's how I wanna talk about to those who can't get what I am trying to say. it's was like. so happy. nervous to meet all my fellow friends,cousins,city, shopping center,food, and so on than I ever though about.
so Day 1 : means on last Friday, we've been waiting stupidly on the train station for about an hour! I hate being late.to me, being late is unacceptable. The situation getting worse. The stormy waves, thunder,tornado,cyclone,hurricane had came over . All the passengers' face was like BOOM! in the air. It's been more than a hour waiting there. So, I ask :"mum, where the heck is the train? " my mum was like :  :" be calm. it'll come sooner and later.(pause a little while....).........WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON TO THE TRAIN!? "  . the announcer kept saying there's another 5 minutes left the train will be arrived. I looked at him like:    what the hell! we've all waiting for more than A hour!@$%#%*%^%(*&^)(*&)(*_^*&*(%^$@#$@!#$@ ( that's how some people voice out their 'pain')  while I just kept walking, nagging    until it came.
At the moment I was looking for the train code that we gonna sit in.....
the speed of the train was too fast.... then I was standing there and  until I caught my view and RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to catch it.
  in the train......... blah blah blah.....arrived at KUlai At NIGHT!
so just skip----------------> to Day 3 because Day 2 I just stay at my aunt home.
My Cousin brought us to Johor Premium Outlet which is a spectacular and beautiful place that I've ever wonder to visit.

Padini outlet store. I love it but unfortunately I can't afford it at that time because I didn't bring enough money :/

my mum was standing aside, i just quickly catch the photo , haha Vincci 

my mum and my little naughty cousin

 

 michael KORS!

  

 

all the way I just kept taking photos LOL

way back to Day 4-----> went to City Square where I visit a lot since I was born. It's pretty hot inside because the center of CS was in decoration . Kinda like labyrinth inside. many ways through it. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT.Anyway ,

 

eating the most delicious Nyonya Kuih with my mum. btw I bought a new bag worth $50 ringgit. haha.. 

 later , went into the INNER CITY of City square.then walk into a cute shop.

    

that night, my cousin brought us to have an awesome dinner. KOREAN FOOD in Korea Restaurant( Dong Seoul)

 

 

The next two days , I just stay home played with my cousins . Laughing and singing. Mum went out with my aunt ran business( selling kuih muih ...)

so It's been a hard time to leave JB. my favorite hometown.

After came back home last night, tired and fed up of playing Lolz. 

going to study hard .............. T.T 

many things I haven't study yet. competition, scripts that I need to memorize.....back to my daily activity sooner and later. 

KEEP IT UP, LIBBY!

♔my dreams▲just hope☆

i hope

all of my dreams come true

achieve my goal

get a good result

enable me to study oversea

bring along with my family

live in Canada,UK,LA

living in vogue yet luxury house

live in peace

travel all around the world

i hope

all of my dreams come true

be a fashion designer

design my own fashion 

or just be a interior designer

design my own interior collection

or just be a singer

sing out my expression

or just be a photographer

bring out my inspiration

i hope

all of my dreams come true

go to NY's shopping center

buy all beauty collection

makeup,mascara,eye liner, blah blah blah

buy all outfits from famous brands

Chanel,Gucci,Tiffany&Co.,Louis Vuitton,Acne,....

i hope 

all of my dreams come true

be a millionaire

buy everything for my parents

buy everything necessary for those needy kids

buy everything necessary for those old fork

i hope 

all of my dreams come true

find a guy 

who truly knows me

who truly understands me

who won't betray me

who won't hurt my heart

who won't let go a bullet through my heart

who won't let me alone

who won't let me live alone

who won't let me die alone

who will sacrifices for each other

who will by my side when I need him

who will by my side when I'm down

who will gives me happiness

who will pull back all my sadness

who is not selfish

who is selfless

who is royalty

who is love me truly deeply

if for real

I'll do the same thing back to him

i hope

marry with a guy from another country

share experiences with each other

share culture with each other

share sadness with each other

share happiness with each other

share dreams with each other 

share love with each other 

i hope

my kids are twin

my kids are mix-blood

my kids born in luxury family

because i want 'em to know

how pretty they are

how blessed they are

how beautiful they are

how gorgeous they are

how wonderful they are

how lucky they are

and I want 'em to know

there's still many kids like 'em but unfortunate 

there's still many people want life like us 

So i want 'em to appreciate what they got

i want 'em to appreciate the people around 'em

i hope

everything I've planned 

work out perfectly

i know God won't make it happen according to my plans

i know all of my dreams won't come true

but at least 

i hope 

God can make some of my dreams come true.

2012 is coming...goodbye 2011.

i don't know where to start this pots.I've press the backspace for a couple times after typing so many nonsense . How and where to begin. I always expressed my hates over here. like the holly shit or just scroll down then you'll see many holly shits.

So let's lose talk about that.

so many that will be the memory but I don't hope those bad memory saved in my brain memory. Just saved in blogger's memory.

I'm turning to 16 next year. just within 5 days. but according to traditional culture, I'm still have 10 months while i'm turning to 16. 

"A new year and A new wish"translated from Chinese proverb. but i don't think like that. What i always dream for is always the same.the aim I've taken never gonna change. Nothing's gonna change my dreams forever. 

So, isn't about this matter I post new update. but I think about the new lessons I'll be learning after 8 days. Whole new things I need to get used of myself. the result I've taken last 4 days wasn't satisfied by me. I don't think that's good result but it's a suck. Imagine that the full score is 8A's . your goal is 5A's but your real result is 3A's3B's1C1D . damn suck!

Then I'll just forget the past and walk towards for my future.

Sudden expression: I wonder when the world end and the all the histories repeat.

Go to some place where no one knows your name..........

Holly shit!

it's kinda been a couple months I didn't even read any books albeit all these days are school holidays. i was like a person who never read or study before. OMG what I'm going to do???? My mom always mentioned that English is needed to be learnt better intended to achieve my dream and for my future.And all these days I didn't even read any English books which i need to learn more vocabularies and grammars. I don't know why i have a kind of feeling when I see all those classmates are so determined,diligent,serious in studying English after the examination. It's such a dilemma and pathetic to me that I don't act like them.I went back to school last week,some of them were learning and reading English articles for next year. And I was like O.o wWWttttttTTTTFFFFFFfffff are they doing ???!!!! But what i do after the exam is REBLOGGING IN MY TUMBLR BLOG.  :L yeah that's what i do. HOLLY SHIT they made me jealous. ESPECIALLY the one who always show English at school.(i don't wanna mention HER name) she was kinda improving her English lately. so so so so. I need to ENHANCE MY ENGLISH LEVEL TOO@!@%#*%^^((&(()&(*^%^&$%$%^##$%#%*$&^()%$

sO, MY FINAL DECISION IS buy DICTIONARY WHICH IS quite expensive (RM 60+) and highly contained many words that i don't know and probably couldn't find out in my current small "un-useless" English dictionary although it'd with me for four years(many holly shits words I couldn't find out and make me dive in the hell),and and ENGLISH IDIOMS BOOKS which contained many idioms I needed to be used in my exams next two years and in social life.I wish that kind of book exist in the POPULAR book store, O.o . NEXT, BAHASA MELAYU IDIOMS BOOKS it's a main language I need to be scored high marks,so i can get my secondary-school's certificate  ( this certificate is wow to me I have to get,if don't I'm useless and I can't further my study ,especially my dream.) THEn, HISTORY this subject has been confirmed by the government that students ought to pass this subject so that they can get the secondary-school's certificate.SEEE! MY HOLLY SHIT this is my SUCK subject EVER! But i hope i can pass it and hopefully can get better result too. so NEXT is what I didn't expect to be learnt about, PHYSICS, CHEMICALS,BIOLOGY all these three subjects are only in one class ( science class )i don't know whether i'll be in science class( those who very intelligent students will step in this class.AND DEFINITELY NOT ME but I was interest in those kind of subjects .SO i guess i don't have any chance to be in this class >.> ) PA class ( for Malay pronounced, PerAkaunan for English means, accounting. I love maths too {but i don't get high marks} .So i was kinda confused in making up my mind. this class doesn't contain physics ,chemical,and biology. it only contained basics science.) the last two dummies class ( Tk and MPV ) TK is Technical and MPV is Planting. so i wish i can fulfill my decision. Next I need to buy is Mathematics and Additional Mathematics . ( science and PA class ) and Pendidikan Moral which is moral education. and finally ARTS! LK so so so . all of my decision about science or pa class is depends on my exam result.

Buy these stuff need money. now I gotta job.A job with RM 2.50/ hour it's very low price actually but there's no more such job require me because that boss was told me that i can work there about two years ago. O.O i know it's a wow that it should be worker interview a job but NOT the boss need to be interviewed by finding workers and booked couple years ago. so it depends on how many hours I work there and it's my pleasure what i arrive there and work. About work. i wish i don't wanna talk about it because if i write it down here,i'll complain many things. wanna memorize many price tags and blah blah blah blah blah !
so end here now!

cute~!

SPONGE BOB SQUARE PANTS USB!

best friends forever

one of my dream room lol XD

wow

forever 21 shopping mall

shopping mall

living room

swimming

have my party at here

living room

my dream

i want my room just like this :

 or

dream